Saturday, February 28, 2015

I love him more

Wednesday night we had a very scary episode with Levi. It was my mom's birthday, we were finishing off the birthday dinner with some birthday fruit salad and feeding the soft banana bits to Levi who was enjoying it immensely, until something went down the wrong way, or he had an allergic reaction to it.... we're still trying to decide what exactly went wrong. He threw up thick goop about every 5 min for a while- slowing the time between each episode got further apart. I mean slllloooowlllly.... I think it all started around 7:30 p.m. and he seemed to be mostly better by midnight. Folks- this may be the scariest thing that's ever happened to Leif and I. Watching our poor boy gasp for air and throw up for hours... (so glad that we were at my parent's house- both nurses) We both just wanted to bawl our eyes out. In between each episode, Levi would collapse in my arms- so weak. It just broke our hearts!

I spent the night at my parents (Snow storm on it's way and didn't want to be snowed in at our house if he got worse.) So, by midnight I felt like I could lay him down in the pack and play and lay on the couch right beside him and watch him sleep and listen to him breath. Scary. Night.

8 a.m. the next day I wake up (I'd fallen asleep?! How did that happen?) Levi scratching the side of the pack and play with his finger nails and squealing at the top of his lungs as my parent's Cat ambled by. He was doing GREAT and wanted to be let out so that he could army crawl around the house after the Cat. She likes to stay about 2 feet away- but enjoys the attention.

I think he snuggles just a bit more now, and I think I love him even more after going through this. Whew. Praise the Lord for a healthy boy who's little body did great handling whatever was upsetting it. And praise HIM for bringing Levi back to perfect health so quickly.

It's been three days- but all I want to do is hold him and kiss his so-soft cheeks, but he's much too busy for too much of that.... places to go, things to suck on, messes to make! :) I love it.

Friday, November 7, 2014

I'd always wanted to be a mommy. Like always. On September 28th, 2013 we found out that that dream (that we thought would be just a bit further in our future) :) would soon be a reality. There were some huge insecurities... many powered by the enemy or raging hormones... I remember bawling my eyes out (weeping, with huge sobs that shook me and everything) on the floor because I didn't have some specific symptom in the What To Expect When You're Expecting book and I must not be normal and what if our baby's not ok?!! Because I don't really feel like I have to pee ALL the time just some of the time (well, that would come...) Or the next night ... same spot on the floor, weeping because we were out of cereal for dinner. (Yeah, life was hard...) :) I have the sweetest husband who blew the budget out the window in my first trimester trying to get me any food that tasted good. He thought pizza was a good idea one night, but little did he know that I'd had a dream about throwing up after eating pizza and just seeing the box made me sick. Poor guy.

ANYWHO.... This season right now. Baby boy 5 months old. Is. The. Sweetest. I'm just in love with my husband -seeing him in this role as a dad and seeing how Levi looks at him. Wow. Just adores his daddy. Can't keep concentrated in nursing when Daddy walks in the room... flipping over backwards down to try to see him upside down. Every time. (Heart melts)

Seeing my siblings with him....

Their smiles... ahh... 

hanging out in pumpkins.... um... cuz that's just what we do.

His smile... and that high pitched squeal. You can hear it, can't you? :)

Those monkey toes  :)

As Elf would say in ... um... Elf.. you know- the Christmas movie. I'm in love, I'm in love and I don't care who knows it. :D I love being a mommy! And just a quick word to those hum-buggers and grinches out there who tell me that "You just wait- they're terrible at 13" or "Twos- they'll be a nightmare at two" and "Ahhh! I bet you NEVER sleep" 
You know what? Just stop. Go back to your Mt. Crumpet. Seriously. Who says those kind of things to a young mommy- who obviously adores her little man?! AND- it doesn't have to be that way. My husband and I were delightful at 13 and pray that we raise our children to be as well. AND- Levi sleeps great! I'm well rested and LOVING being a mom. There... that felt better. I've been wanting to say that for awhile.  

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

A Birth Announcement...

We joyfully announce the birth of our son,

Levi Aiden Abel
June 6th, 2014 6:53 a.m. 8 pounds, 13 ounces

Levi at 1 month

Friday, May 9, 2014

Today Is The Day

Photo by Leif Abel

Several weekends ago, a man from our church approached Leif and I after the service telling us "Today is the Day" - he wasn't sure exactly what it pertained to, but urged us to just bring it before The Lord and ask what exactly He wanted to show us in that word. 
Off and on, that day, Leif and I brought it up together in prayer and weren't really hearing anything. Both of our first thoughts were about the baby.... but it was a little early for him to come that day- so that couldn't be it. Our second thoughts were both about his job... but weren't sure what about it exactly. That night I lay in bed and felt like a kid who didn't get what they wanted for Christmas. Kind of let down. I lay there really bummed and asked the Lord what the deal was? I thought something was going to happen today- but nothing did. I don't get it.  

He responded, I could feel His smile...

I did do something today. I planted the seed of expectancy in your hearts. You lived today like no other day. You both lived it with the expectancy that something big was about to go down. That's how I want you to live every day. I want you to wake up and expect me to move, expect me to use you, expect STUFF to HAPPEN! Because I do move everyday, but your eyes just aren't open to see it all the time. 

I LOVE that! I want to do that every morning.... because I've found it drastically changes my day. When I live with eyes wide open.... with baited breath.... I see the ripples in the water, I see the hand of God in little and big ways. And I am amazed. 

Today is the day
I will be used by you
That I will be poured out and you will pour in

Today is the day 
that you will move mountains
that my petitions will be heard
and boulders will be moved

Today is the day
Your children will be healed and made whole
Use me today and everyday 
to leave your handprint on their hearts

Today is the day
Relationships will be made whole
families restored
hurts healed- no offenses taken

Today is the day 
that you walk upon this land
as I reach out, we partner in creation
we join hands

Today is the day 
Let me walk in thoughtful expectancy
Looking out- help my eyes to see
Remind me that everyday- miracles are in your plan

I hope this changes how you see today, and tomorrow and every day.  Be excited! HE is moving! 


Friday, May 2, 2014

measuring cups

"Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." (Luke 6:38)

This past Sunday, our pastor talked about this verse and unfortunately, most of the time I walk out of there saying, "Oooh, that was so good" and then by Wednesday, I really couldn't tell you what the topic of last week's sermon was. I love it though, when the Lord takes it and follows me around with it throughout the week, as if to say, "I don't think you really got this... let's review..." :)  

As I look out the big picture window in our living room from the couch in the mornings, coffee in hand, mist lifting from the water... I see this planter that my parents gave me a couple of years ago (that I have yet to plant anything in....). That verse (Luke 6:38) keeps running through my mind. It speaks of generosity, but it also offers a challenge. Do you ever read a verse that maybe you've read too much? A lot of us have been raised in the church and just fade out when we get to a verse that we know and just breeze over it... Oh, I've already read this one... "Give and it shall be...... hmmmm hmmm hmmm.... something.... measured to you."  Sounds like Charlie Brown's parents in the Peanuts. :) 

But really read it with me. Give and It shall be given to you. As we mimic  Him in His generosity- He aches to bless us in return. (only a fraction of what HE does...) But then he goes on to specify what kind of giving he's talking about." A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over" I asked the Lord this week what that meant- I've definitely faded out in that part. I didn't get it. But He gave me a picture of this cup (picture above). You know in a recipe when it's calling for brown sugar and it says something about a packed cup of brown sugar? That's what this means. When you give- don't just give a cup. Make sure it's a good quality form of measurement, pack it down, then shake it down- so you can get more in and that it's running over! That blows my conception of generosity out of the water! 

Next, He talks about the size of your "generosity measuring cup" - if you will. "For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." If I told you I was going to give you a scoop of something... your favorite food, gold coins..... whatever. What kind of scoop would you be hoping I'm going to use to measure it out? I know I'd like to be using that big blue cup in the picture as the scoop as opposed to a teaspoon!! 

So, as I sit here looking at that cup- He reminds me how he wants me to give. That excites me. It doesn't even make me think of the whole "give 'till it hurts thing" I picked up somewhere, which just doesn't sound like a lot of fun. He wants me to use that big ol' mug to measure out my generosity. He wants me to pack it down, shake it down and fill it until it runs all over the table... and then give. THEN He says he's going to take the same size measuring cup (that big ol' mug) and use that as the "generosity measuring cup" that he's going to give back to you... packed down, shaken down and running all over the table.... Cool stuff, eh? 

Have a blessed Friday! Thanks for letting me share a bit of what's been on my heart this week... other than thinking about having our baby join us in around a month now! WOHOO! Cool things the Lord is doing in preparing my heart for that time with Him in labour... He's wooing me and calling me away with Him to prepare me (Hosea 2:14,15)! Would love your prayers this month as we're getting ready for this exciting season! 


Monday, November 18, 2013

News, News, News!

Wow! It has been SO long since I've blogged. :) So much to share, now that I finally have a little more energy to get on here... since I'm 12 weeks Pregnant!!! :) We are so very excited and so happy and blessed to be the parents to this little one! Spending lots of time praying and researching names... there is so much in a name and Leif and I really take the meaning of names so seriously, and so enjoy that aspect of naming our baby! 

I am SO happy about being almost through my first trimester!! (Seriously, you have no idea...) It's been pretty rough with the sickness and nausea and trying everything to try to feel better. I seriously have the most amazing husband on the planet taking care of me. I haven't been able to do hardly anything in the kitchen without being sick, and grocery shopping is totally out- so he has really picked up my slack in those areas... actually, every area. I really haven't felt well enough most of the time to do anything. I guess it runs in the family- my mom had it even worse with me! Thanks, Mom for all you went through with me.... I seriously had no idea what you meant when you told me you were really nauseous having me.... 

12 weeks- size of baby!
Yesterday and today I have felt really good and have had a bit more energy. I can't wait to get started organizing stuff... I have so much in my closet that needs to GO! At 6 weeks- I gave away most of my clothes that already weren't working for my body... but I feel like I'm getting a little bigger everyday and I have even more to put in boxes, that I don't feel comfortable in now. I'm loving my maternity pants already- so so comfy on my tummy! :)  I really am enjoying seeing my belly really be a cute pregnant belly instead of just feeling fat- like I have for most of the first trimester. My baby's the size of a plum- about 2 inches! :)

Would really appreciate prayers- as I try to keep good food, and my prenatal vitamins down and for the nausea to totally go away soon! I would love to start craving things- right now pretty much everything just sounds really bad. Thanks so much!

1st Prenatal Appointment is December 2nd! Can't wait to hear the heartbeat!


Monday, August 5, 2013

He Ain't No Liar!

Leif and I took a week off last week to have an adventure and take time away with the Lord and HE met us in an amazing way! So excited about the freedom and the crazy love for God that He's renewed in my heart! Another awesome part about that is that I feel like before this week, when Leif told me that he loved me, I felt like it was filling the "love cup" in my heart up from the bottom. It was really good, but he had to fill me up a lot more, I felt so so needy. I realized about half-way through the week, that when Leif told me that he loved me, it felt like my "love cup" was already full and his, "I love you" was just a whip-cream and cherry on-top of the already full "love cup" ... it was so awesome! I feel less needy and more full. Not depressed and SO excited about life! God is so good! 

The Lord also brought to my attention how when I don't believe that He has made a good  thing when He made me, and have self-esteem issues and don't love who He made me to be- I'm calling Him liar. When He made man in the beginning and said, "It is good!" I'm essentially saying... "Actually, no. You messed up here and here and here, and I don't like this and this and this... I'm not the cool kid." 
I don't want to be calling GOD a liar! So, I repented for doing that for my whole life and He has given me this gift of realizing the amazing creation that He's made me to be! I AM the cool kid! I'm His cool kid! :) I'm beautiful and made in His image! 

Loving my Father and enjoying life,